vanishing point album cover
Two Steps Back
 
whoah!
one step forward and two steps back
you know
the finest thing is thing you lack
yo!
you threw out yer phone and yer TV set
no!
you're all used up but you're not done yet
 
you know
hesitations lessen the big regrets
yeah!
you can't fail if you don't take the test
oh!
but then you'll know you didn't do your best
no!
you're all used up but you're not done yet
 
you know
if you really wanna change you'd better write a list
oh no!
'cause every time you try that you just write this
oh!
the imperfections are all perfect
no,
you're all used up but you're not done yet
 
 
Lazy Fare
 
 
it's okay
let opportunity slip away
'cause you weren't meant to rock out anyway
you'll say
 
let it go
convince yourself "I mean, 
how could you have known
that all you'd add up to is just so so
oh no
 
the train came by
you could have grabbed a hold and taken the ride
it would have made for such a source of pride
oh sigh
 
lazy fare
 
sit real still 
and try to tell yourself it's no big deal
and after all you don't believe in free will
but still
 
you hear something
a voice is calling and it's using your name
and it is saying you're the one to blame
for being lame
 
shut it up
prescription pills will take this fucking up
and make it all okay but what the fuck
this sucks
 
lazy fare
 
just relax
life is what you make it kid, face facts
and if you didn't act you didn't act
you lacked
 
you'll move on
you'll just keep on with all that keepin' on
the schedule will tell you what to work on
and on, and on and....
 
more trains will come
you tell yourself next time you won't be so dumb
you tell yourself next time you'll hop right on
right on!
 
it's another lie 
that you will swallow just so you can get by
and when it's all over you'll wonder why
and cry
 
lazy fare
 
 
Castaway
 
castaway
tossed the anchor 
away today
so, hey:
wanna go somewhere
anywhere's fine with me
 
glad to say
whatever comes to mind
it's right on time
'cause there's no E.T.A.
on a castaway
in an old ashtray
here to stay
so hey:
wanna do something?
anything is fine with me
 
tossed the anchor away
today
 
castaway
 
 
 
I Give Up
 
I give up
all this bullshit what the fuck
am I doin'?
just my luck
I've been screwing up my stuff
'bout to ruin
everything I see is bad to me
won't you help me please?
 
I give up
chemicals are not enough
to make me happy
and your touch
leaves receptor downgrade's clutch-
es on my heart
and everything that's me
can plainly see 
this was meant to be
 
I made up
good excuses for my luck
it's just that 
it's impossible to find 
a four leaf clover
in a field of weeds
this was meant to be
won't you help me please?
 
 
 
Someone's Frozen the Sun
 
someone's frozen the sun
the heat and the cold they are now one
the telephone's melted away
and frozen phone lines they got
nothing to say
 
the fire escape is on fire
the birds are frozen to electrical wires
the day is darker than night
the ivy's dying 
trying to reach light
 
someone's frozen the sun
it's vomiting sun rays for no one
the sky sinks down to the floor
it flattens my chest and I 
can't reach that door
to leave this place far behind
I know it's all inside of my mind
the power to heal up the sun
but my neosporin is 
used up and all done
 
fuck that we don't need no sun
it just gave skin cancer to everyone
I'll just live under a rock
and me and some insect will
have a long talk 'bout how
someone's frozen the sun
and the heat and the cold they are now one
I'd say we'd talk until dawn
but since there's no sun it'll
just go on and on and on and on and on and on and on.....
 
 
 
Hittin' the Bottle Again
 
hittin' the bottle again
hello old friend
what have been doin'?
nuthin' but waitin'
for you to come back again
so hello old friend
hittin' the bottle again
takin' another spin
 
hittin' the bottle again
hello old friend
sweet poison tickling my skin
back on the backslide again
it's legal so it's a win-win
no more o' that prohibition
hittin' the bottle again
taking another swim
 
glug-glug-glug-gluggin' again
hello old friend
you feel so nice in my hand
and you always understand
you've kept so many company
so why not me?
hittin' the bottle again
taking my final swim
Friends 'till the Ends
 
shut it down, turn it off, this is it
I can see there's no me in this shit
and I'm tired of the fire burning in me 
I'll retire or get fired
but just let me be
 
time has come, finally whispering "free"
and the walls with their calls, no more to me
and I'm glad to be sad when you call
'cause we're friends 'till the ends
which means you don't know me at all
 
I just took my last pill, now they're all gone
hazy place, no escape here in this song
but I know I can call you when it's done
and I'm wrecked, imperfect 
and finished having fun
 
 
Dreary
 
well
here we fucking are
no gas in the car
no restrictions near or far to say
how to spend the day
what to do and "hey,
you should be on time this time"
my friends
used to be my friends 
a means to an ends
"how ya doin'?" that depends on you
but now they're dead and gone
leavin' me this song
leavin' me the whole day alone, but
 
chorus: 
dreary sundays always save me
save me
 
sometimes I could use my own time
we all need alone time
we all need some "work on me time"
and that's fine
kickin' out the dope rhymes
walkin' on that thin line
separating peace from pieces
phone rings
pulling on your heart strings
always seems to stop things 
from just happening
but not today
the distractions far away
leaving me right here to play
leaving me right here to say
 
chorus
 
sshhhhh!
do you hear that sound
of no one comin' 'round
just raindrops fallin' on my windowpane
winter's sweet refrain
it could drive you insane
but Chinese water torture ain't no thing
I'll close my eyes and sing
or just do anything 
'cause anything is still something that's mine
I'm taking back my time
I'm drawin' out some lines
encircling a soul divine 'cause
 
save me
 
 
 
Don't Feel a Thing
 
I know this girl that lives far away
she's better than all the others that come my way
she's magical, she's gifted, she's talented and kind
but right now she's totally fuckin' with my mind
 
now I know I call her too much on the phone
but I just had to have her for my own
now I got her right here and I still feel alone
oh why can't I straighten out my dome?
 
chorus:
'cause I don't feel a thing
no I don't feel a thing
don't feel a thing worth feelin' 
 
she's leaving tomorrow on a plane
she says she can't help with my brain
she's probably right, but I'll still go inane
oh, why must this shit turn out so lame?
 
well we tried so hard to make it work
but she's making me feel like a jerk
she says that I'll be happier but I'd rather go berserk
with her by my side as a perk
 
chorus
 
now she tells me she's just fucking up my flow
but this is the only flow I know
and then she says she loves me but she's still got to go
oh why does this so hurt my holes?
 
the sex was good, so I thought that it was okay
and we could go on carrying on this way
and I tried so hard to feel the right way
'cause she's the only one that makes it okay
 
chorus
 
 
 
Sad Sack
 
I wrote you a letter
then I threw it away
it said a whole lotta things
about having nothing to say
('bout having nothing to say)
 
my dance card's so empty
as well as my mind
and I start thinking of you 
when I should be killing time
(he should be killing time)
 
I'm talking to no one
and they're answering back
they tell me to just move on
and stop being such a sad sack
(stop being such a sad sack)
 
I'll conquer the nation
and then the world
and I'll do it all one
'cause I don't need no fucking girl
(he don't need no fucking girl)
 
this song is so stupid
but I'll see where it leads
and I'll watch all the gardens die
and live out my life in these weeds
(live out his live in the weeds)
 
 
 
My Luv
 
I'll fold my kingdom down
I'll sell my soul right now
I'll let the mourners come
free stuff for everyone
for you
 
my luv
 
I'll set my pets all free
sadness don't bother me
I'll paint my room your colors
I'll turn my back on the others
for you
 
my luv
 
I'll let my debt keep rising
I'll sing only to you when I sing
I'll burn everything that catches 
fire so you can smoke the ashes
for you
 
my luv
 
 
 
Follow Sunny Days
 
downers or speed 
what do you need
maybe some more weed?
you'll find a way 
what's that they say?
"to keep the dog's at bay"
 
follow sunny days
 
vericose veins 
they pulse in your brains
like ivy gone insane
in there it stays and never goes away
but like they all say
 
follow sunny days
 
midnight or noon
alone in your room
shuffling through your doom
the darkness they say
can all go away
so even though it might sound kinda "gay"
 
follow sunny days
 
 
 
Empty Spaces
 
empty spaces
the in-betweens
the airless air that's all around
silent noises
echoing
the endless reverberations
of no sound
 
frozen faces
mumbling
with spittle dripping off their mouths
the clock is ticking
hand's aren't moving
the frozen faces turn to scowls
 
empty spaces
space = time
time = empty
empty spaces
 
the dream is hidden 
behind a dream
that hides behind another dream's dream
you cross the road 
to get to the other side
then it all doesn't seem to mean
what it seemed to mean
 
now that first side
is the new other side
and it really doesn't seem to mean
what it seemed to mean
 
empty spaces
the in-betweens
the airless air that's all around
silent noises
echoing
the endless reverberations
of no sound
modern ham shack album cover
Yer Emo Days Are Over
 
Where will you be
when your emo days are over and
your tattoos are all fading out  
and she really won't call you back this time and
 
what will you be  
when your emo days are dead and gone
and everyone else has carried on
and left you far behind and lonely?
 
where will you go
when your emo days have bitten dust
and your romantic ideals crushed
and you're all alone with your cigarette habit?
 
who will you blame
when your emo days are long long gone
just a middle-aged man mowing your lawn
and the rock 'n' roll all now seems too loud DAGNABIT!
 
your time is up
time is up for you
 
how will it feel  
when your emo days have said goodbye
and it feels like acting when you cry
and you can't get drunk 'cause your body can't take it?
 
you'll be real quiet  
when your emo days are in your past  
even though you swore they'd always last
now you can't keep it real or even fake it
 
you tried so hard  
to keep your emo lifestyle together but
the years caught up like "what the fuck?"
and the bills piled up all the way to the ceiling
 
oh, well you sigh
all those emo days weren't so damn nice
now a mature, adult lifestyle will suffice
buy you'll always kind of miss that feeling
that emo feeling
 
time is up for you
 
 
 
Sand
 
fiberoptic fingers writing this this morning
I'll use the four-track in absence of a band
it's just a change of season
creeping up my bedsheets
a shipwrecked soul is destined to be sand
 
all the looming graveyards  
of my youth make no complaints
this is jumbled seedling madness from the scratch-pad
is that what you would call "agony in the garden"?
pardon me, but it's really not that bad
 
fiberoptic fingers writing this this morning
I'll use the four-track in absence of a band
it's just a change of season
creeping up my bedsheets
a shipwrecked soul is destined to be sand
 
 
 
Tree Falling
 
does a tree make a sound
when it falls down
and no one is around?
 
does the clock on the wall  
really matter at all
when the mechanism stalls?
 
does a tree make a sound
when it falls down
and no one is around?
 
does the song have an end
when it won't be played for friends
who haven't any ears to lend?
 
and will i make a sound
when i fall down
and you are nowhere to be found?
 
 
 
No Love At All
 
let's say goodbye
'fore it's too late
let's say goodbye
won't it be great
to let it down
to let it fall
'cause in this love
is no love at all
 
no love at all
 
let's say goodbye
'fore it's too late
let's say goodbye
no it can't wait
just let it down
just let it fall
'cause in this love
is no love at all
 
 
 
You Fuck
 
you fuck you know-it-all
why don't you live it
all the time?
 
you've got you've got it all
why can't you live it
all the time?
 
 
 
To Remind Me I'm Not Dead
 
one more song
then I'm just going to going to go to bed
one first song
one more collection of words
to remind me I'm not dead
 
to remind me I'm not dead
 
or a figment inside someone else's head
to remind me I'm not dead
Ain't Gonna Fuck No Vagina No Mo
 
well, I woke up this mornin'
and all my hair was gone
looked about all over  
in the closet and on the lawn
and I couldn't find nuthin'
not even to save my life  
now I'll die alone right here
and i won't ever have a wife
 
chorus:  
ain't gonna fuck no vagina no mo
ain't gonna fuck no vagina no mo
I'll be celibate for all my remainin' days
ain't gonna fuck no vagina no mo
ain't gonna fuck no vagina no mo
ain't' gonna get no pussy no how no time no way
 
I don't see no reason
to go out tonight
don't seem to me the season  
to fuss or to fight
and to go and look for pussy
just seems like such a task
it'll be another ice age 'fore I get a piece of ass
 
chorus
 
well, my teeth are rot and broken
and my skin is creasing up
my ears and eyes are fadin'  
and my pick-up lines all suck
I'm a used up busted old-timer
whose fallen on hard times
I'd probably take about ten viagra  
just for me to get it up!
 
chorus
 
 
 
Droppin' the Hammer
 
all's fair in love and war
tell me what we're fighting for    
 
she's dropping the hammer on me
i'm just broken machinery
she says don't worry about me
i'm just broken machinery
fucking up  
exquisitely...
 
all's fair in love and war
tell me what we're fighting for
she's dropping the hammer on me
thought i had to stop our destiny
she's dropping the hammer on me
on me
on me
on meeeee...
 
 
 
The Burden of Proof
 
ooohhh...
 
so many faces comin' out
you can't keep track
so many voices talking at you  
behind your back
so many towns you haven’t seen
you’ll try another one
so many things to do  
I think that it's called fun
 
ooohhh....
 
another social scene  
you're floating in your head
you know you just showed up
to show them that you're not dead
the burden of proof rests on your shoulders
and weighs you down
can't wait to find an excuse
to head back out of town
 
 
 
 
Vampire Blues
 
I feel like a fucking vampire now
my thirst for human life is never-ending  
I hope only someday to somehow find
some fresh miraculous victim
who will rise up and ignore their bloodied neck
and pitch themselves forward
to bloody mine
 
my love is lost
I vomited it all up
I was so drunk off it
so delicious a high
so lightened my heavy heart
my brain finally cut loose of skull
and floating the hours hung easy
in amniotic fluid
but soon all the rooms we shared begin to spin
and I had to leave you behind
 
my hand clutching my soul as I went running  
for the bathroom
oh yeah
 
I feel like a fucking vampire now
my thirst for human life is a never-ending one
I hope only someday to somehow find
some fresh miraculous victim
who will rise up and ignore their bloodied neck
and pitch themselves deftly forward
to bloody mine

central city album cover
Li'l Kingdom of Gilpin Blues
 
i headed up to the li'l kingdom of gilpin
to see what i could see
had my senses flooded
with a pure mystery
 
seein' miners of gold
pullin' on slot machines
saw a whole lotta drinkin' 
and opera singers in the streets
 
well I met a girl in gilpin
finest in the land
she said i was her wife
and someday she might be my man
 
i headed up to the li'l kingdom of gilpin
to see what i could see
all i got to behold
was a lot of sweet mystery
 
 
 
Downtown
 
downtown
you're going downtown
you're going down
motherfucker
downtown town
you're going downtown
stupid dumb-ass motherfucker
downtown
 
 
 
Got No Motivation
 
got no motivation
permanent vaccation
mental masturbation
got no motivation
no motivation
Central City's Gonna Kill Me
 
chorus:
Central City's gonna kill me
kill me dead
that's what I said
 
all the plumbing's shot to ribbons
in this house and in my bowels
bathroom exploded while you were gone
better throw away the towels
'cause
 
chorus
 
I sprained my arm on a slot machine
broke my ankle putting on my shoes
threw my back out saying goodbye to you
and nearly fainted from singing the blues
'cause
 
chorus
 
1.7 miles in the sky
when you first arrive you'll feel kinda high, but
then you feel like you're gonna die
and then you notice all the senior citizens
dropping like flies, 'cause
 
chorus
 
 
 
Planes Go Up and Down
 
planes go up and planes go down
little tiny girl spinning all around
and she don't know what she's got
'till it's gone
 
all the houses in a row
mountain road how far does it go?
but you will never find the end
ever
 
lithium and vitamin C
chemical concoction inside of me
and just think of all that 
could be